The real thing...

Reality: something that exists or happens: something that has real existence and must be dealt with in real life.



I have to confess something. For many years I lived in an alternate reality. You read that right. I lived my life believing that my reality depended upon another. I was real if dad was happy. I was real if my friends were happy. I was real if he was happy. My reality was always based upon an others happiness. My own happiness was based on others happiness. When bad things happened I created some fairy tale to whisk it away. I never dealt with it, I never confronted the bad thing. Confrontation creeps me out. I never was real. My reality was alternate because it was different than my own. It has been a year since I have discovered that I am real and I am okay. That problems come, I deal with them, and I move on. My joy and my happiness is not only based upon you. I am real and I am okay! It is my journey's mantra. Tears may be rolling down my cheek...I am real and I am okay. Great sorrow may be weighing down my heart...I am real and I am okay. Laughter may be bubbling out of my heart...I am real and I am okay!



Denise